"The only thing we have to fear is fear it'self - nameless, unreasoning, unjustified, terror which paralyzes needed efforts to convert retreat into advance."
---- FDR - First Inaugural Address, March 4, 1933
Paralyzing fear. The kind that seeps into decisions and creates internal drama, the kind that keeps you awake at night and in your head during the day. It kind of snuck up on me.. a few weeks, maybe a bit more – snuck up on me and trapped me behind this invisible barrier. I felt stuck, in this place operating exclusively from a place of fear. My fear place, my shadow place. We all have have it within us – but the key to empowerment is in recognizing that the beast is there – sleeping.
Rather than acting, and positioning my intent – I have been reacting, being reactionary.. I’ve been letting things happen. I’ve been in my guard position.
At the ready, on my guard.
Here in this cage, with my beast awake and hungry – I am radiating an aura of bleak and emptiness.
Me the lover of light, but in this dark place the light is dim. I am scared about the future, about that dreaded unknown.
I think unknown is something we can all relate too. Within our careers, lives, marriages, faith lives, relationships in general, health.. It’s vast. Unknown is infinite.
As if a candle has been lit in my heart – I have caught this behaviour -recognizing that this is a decision.
The great thing about being alive, I have choices. My actions, my thoughts, my decisions are choices. I do not choose this any more.
This is a great song, I am taking it in today.. Here comes the sun.
Today, I am going to be stepping from the shadow and back into the light. Indeed – Nothing has changed. There is still that Unknown tracking me, my beast has bellowed his last and is going back to sleep..
that F.E. A. R…
Fictitious Events Appearing Real.
No longer has power. FICTITIOUS Events, that are APPEARING REAL.
We are faced everyday with the choice to run or to be strong, running is exhausting. I’ve learned that Life is full of bruises, it ain’t all sunshine and roses, we are going to get bruised from time to time and I think the key is to keep moving, to expect good, to focus on the positive, the silver lining, grab on to the things that are within our control and to exhale and release the things that aren’t. Allow the sun to guide us and to operate from a place of love. This is my choice today. To Love.
This is a great clip about life, and taking the hit and getting back up.. have a look.
Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It’s a very mean and nasty place and I don’t care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard ya hit. It’s about how hard you can get it and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done! Now if you know what you’re worth then go out and get what you’re worth. But ya gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers saying you ain’t where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody! Cowards do that and that ain’t you! You’re better than that!
One of the best tactics to stay in check with this: Fear is about tomorrow about what MAY happen. Take a deep breath and be HERE. Take a walk and pay attention to what you see, to your breath, smell the summer air, listen to the sounds of life near by, and smile. Radiate joy, choose joy. We’ll do it together.
words by | H. G. Yates